Resent of Survival

from Mixed to Kill by John Halpart

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God, what for
Was I left alive
In this sorry land

Of burning trees
Mustard gas,
And screaming walking dead

Broken, tired, feel like shit
Barely holding to my mind

Tell me, tell me how
Is it any good for anyone?

—

Demons don’t torture me anymore
My flesh now rots on their teeth
Don’t look into my eyes
Their hunger grows in me

—

What, you think we’re thru?
You think you win?
No, I’m still breathing out and in

Whatever poison wind will bring
All feels like acid on the skin

Was I really the worst?
Were my sins that bad?
To be left stranding alone

In this worldwide
Echo chamber of death

—

Closing on giving up
Ever farther from believing

Hell I might survive
Just to resent the life you gave me

—

I do need help
You won’t provide
And I’m supposed to be your child

My only hope
You read my mind
‘Cause it feels deadly out of line

Before you have it all destroyed
Give me one last chance
To write your name in stone
With my unworthy soul

—

Another life
Another home
Things you’ve promised to us all

Is this the highest of your gifts?
Or full collection of my fears?

I will not fall another prey
I hit the ground

Grab a random skull
Start sharpening my nails

—

Demons don’t fight me anymore
My gods lay dead beneath my feet
Don’t look into my eyes
Their anger lives in me

—

Straight from your palace of light
To the darkest of pits where
I was casted to out of bitter resent to the very soul
You’ve hated me into life with

One day I will choose to return
Bearing my burning cross
And finish the work you’ve started

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from Mixed to Kill, released June 25, 2019

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