1. |
Resent of Survival
05:03
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God, what for
Was I left alive
In this sorry land
Of burning trees
Mustard gas,
And screaming walking dead
Broken, tired, feel like shit
Barely holding to my mind
Tell me, tell me how
Is it any good for anyone?
—
Demons don’t torture me anymore
My flesh now rots on their teeth
Don’t look into my eyes
Their hunger grows in me
—
What, you think we’re thru?
You think you win?
No, I’m still breathing out and in
Whatever poison wind will bring
All feels like acid on the skin
Was I really the worst?
Were my sins that bad?
To be left stranding alone
In this worldwide
Echo chamber of death
—
Closing on giving up
Ever farther from believing
Hell I might survive
Just to resent the life you gave me
—
I do need help
You won’t provide
And I’m supposed to be your child
My only hope
You read my mind
‘Cause it feels deadly out of line
Before you have it all destroyed
Give me one last chance
To write your name in stone
With my unworthy soul
—
Another life
Another home
Things you’ve promised to us all
Is this the highest of your gifts?
Or full collection of my fears?
I will not fall another prey
I hit the ground
Grab a random skull
Start sharpening my nails
—
Demons don’t fight me anymore
My gods lay dead beneath my feet
Don’t look into my eyes
Their anger lives in me
—
Straight from your palace of light
To the darkest of pits where
I was casted to out of bitter resent to the very soul
You’ve hated me into life with
One day I will choose to return
Bearing my burning cross
And finish the work you’ve started
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2. |
Curse of the Villain
05:00
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For everyone
You've ever loved
Nothing is worse than to fucking love you back
It always hurts
To be your friend
Often it drives them into grave
You're gone alone
Nobody's eyes
Had for decades seen your face
From everyone who ever did
No one's left to tell your tale
—
It is the curse of the villain
Nothing of to be ashamed
Others always try
To be somebody they're not
Everything will be forever tainted
You can never take it back
It's the best for a hero
Curse of the villain
—
The ones you save
They end up dead
All with whom you shared
Poisoned and gone mad
Your sorry face
Is devil's maze
Of scars you’ve shaped yourself
You'll never get the life you want
Hero of the ones you've never met
—
Wayfarer of the no man's land
Light within the darkened soul
Hero of the damned
Fiend without control
—
It is the curse of the villain
Nothing of to be ashamed
Others always try
To be somebody they're not
Everything will be forever painted black
You can never take it back
The best kind of hero
Curse of the villain
—
It is the curse of the villain
Nothing of to be ashamed
Others always tried
To be somebody they're not
Everything will be forever tainted
You can never take it back
Runs down the gene of a hero
Curse of the villain
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3. |
A Will
05:33
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On two broken knees
A quick glaze up
To see my axe
I rest my mind
Bearing my flag
Blood on your arms
Your face tells me
I should give up
There is no pain
As your knife twists
You speak your words
But I hear bliss
Please grant my wish
And do it quick
One can lose but once
A no-surrender fight
Keep marching on
That alone shall kill them all
—
While drowning in her blood
My dying god gave me this knife
Painted in my whole life’s purpose death
This blade goes thru my heart
With the world of pain and misery
With the world where you and I
Wage war against the life itself
It's cutting all my ties
—
Even without
All the darkness and chaos we’ve brought
The sun could never take our pain away
No water would clean these wounds
—
Yet, I command you to breathe
Learn from the darkness in your heart and live on
I will you to stand up against this war
Be it together or alone
—
Find in them what you hate the most
Start with their world
Send out the best of your good will
Signed in murder
—
Why are you still here
Not dying for the cause?
Child, all you need is faith
Send more bodies to the front
You told me what you’ve lost
You told me what you want
To the glory now
I’m showing you the fucking road
It is up to us
To set things right
There could be no
Better judges for their lusts
Go scourge the earth
Now, shatter skies
Poison their seas
No one’s to be left alive
—
From where we are now
There might be no way out for us
What little set of paths we ever had
We have bathed in blood
—
Even without
All the darkness and chaos we have brought
The sun could never take our pain away
No water would clean these wounds
—
Yet, I command you to breathe
Learn from the darkness in your heart, be proud of it, and live on
I will you to stand up against this war
Against all the odds
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4. |
Asylum
05:03
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Don't want to cross my mind with yours
There are no answers to my questions
Only adopted, false,
Imagined knowledge of the verse
My lies are set to rest my soul
Your only goal - gain more control
Don't waste your precious time on me
I’ll never share your fake believes
Your patronage of defective breed
Will someday make us see you bleed
They just were lost - you've made 'em weak
Doomed to fail, foolish creed
—
All the reckless will be stopped
Every fraud will meet its sharpened knife
We'll stay a burden
For their fucking lives
My pride
Is calling out my name
Make no mistake: all my “I am”
Might as well have been “we are”
—
Let my body go
There’s no more room in the house for the insane
We tried to make a difference
You've made it all in vain
Time won't help you
To untie yourself from what you've done
From what you have become
No rest for us until you're gone
—
Every time you open your mouth
I wanna scratch my ears, rip out my eyes
Every shit that you came up with
Echoes sick and undefined
Our lives can't be the same
Your minds have drowned in your own pain
While the restless liars to the prey
Straighten lines to your mass grave
—
All the reckless will be stopped
Every fraud will meet it's sharpened knife
We'll stay a burden
For their fucking lives
My pride
Is calling out my name
Make no mistake: all my “I am”
Might as well have been “we are”
—
Let my people go
There is no more room in the house for the insane
We tried to make a difference
You've made it all in vain
Time won't help you
To untie yourself from what you've done
Justice will be served
Then we'll be gone
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5. |
Last Stand
04:49
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Lay waste! Tonight
We'll be remembered as the light
Of the Armageddon
It's our turn to play
The game of fate
When blood
Becomes one with ground
This may be a stronghold of our drowned dreams
But it belongs to us
—
Kill the invaders
Battlecry is our prayer to the gods
Hold your ground
Soon it's time to break the line
Heroes of our time
Are here and now on both your sides
Ten bloody years of history
Will end on this last stand
—
Another day; another fight
Soon will be the very last to count
Oh what disturbs us?
Only (the) beasts we've turned inside
From right to left we'll scream
It's our way to greet your death
This may be a stronghold of our drowned dreams
But it belongs to us
—
We are here to die
If you dig any deeper
You'll find we're just another wave
That accomplished nothing
We came here to die
We fight for being remembered
We were born to die today
—
Kill the invaders
Battlecry is our prayer to the gods
Hold your ground
Soon it's time to break the line
Heroes of our time
Are here and now on both your sides
Ten bloody years of history
Will end on this last stand
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6. |
Among the Sick
02:06
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Leave me behind
My home is right where the battle’s taking place
Can't stand the judging eyes
Everywhere outside my bed
If they wanna take my flesh
I’ll gladly tear it of my soul
It feels like all this fucking stench
Was their way to end us all
My hands are burning red
Most of the pain goes straight into my head
Many tried to find a cure, but
There is no salvation for the damned
You cannot fight
The sick did prevail over the bright
Last chance to stay among the dead alive
Is to relax and join the ride
—
It’s been over 20 years
Since I breathed air instead of smoke
Every day is like wandering in the forest blindfolded by death
There is no way to find a road
It's been over a lifetime
Since I had a restful sleep
In thick fog I trace a perfect circle
Number one among the sick
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7. |
Obsessed Condition
04:38
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I'm on my last stop
My cage is too cold to sleep
Too many thoughts
Too much to regret and rethink
I keep all about you in mind
Analyze it all the time
There is nothing here anyway
But pictures of you scratched into my eyes
—
It came from the same place as I
We were sharing these walls and windows of bars
I wasn’t the first and I doubt I’ll be the last
For your affection there’s always a hunt
Always a race, always a war
I’ll never see it again but I know it is on
—
Every day is a trial
I can't get out
There is no point in trying
Neither can stop
There is an old barbed wire
Around the bars
My blood is never dry on it
I scream for the riot
Can't be done
This prison's only for me
I’m here the only one
The only light here is fire
Burning in my wounds
With every spark the pain
Tends not to loose
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8. |
Home
04:37
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Last night, again
Had to move out beating the sun: they were coming for us
Just like we were forced to leave our home
With no discuss
Lost in the morning sun
We said goodbye to another piece of frozen ground
To make a living for my men
Nothing’s left to trade, starting today
We are getting short on supplies
We are leaving people behind
Getting deeper into hatred and lies
Or is it all in my mind?
—
Every road to walk is crawled
With shadows of the haunting past
We are what’s left of a selfish desire
We are exiles for you
And we’re here to be outcast
Every turn to take is full
Of hateful strangers' eyes
We are the offspring of the sickest family
We are traitors in blood
—
I pour the last tears of poison into a broken chalice
I said to you my final words
My part is done, I can't find another justice
At this point my rations might be all having any worth
—
Every road to walk is crawled
With shadows of the haunting past
We are what’s left of a selfish desire
We are exiles for you
And we’re here to be outcast
Every turn to take is full
Of hateful strangers' eyes
We are the offspring of the sickest family
We are traitors in blood
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9. |
Games of the Wicked King
04:35
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I only hear
As clear as I’m allowed
What lies beneath the words?
Truth is hidden from my eyes
The corrupted power
That rests on corrupted slaves
Now when all rules are gone
Time for the rat to play its game
His private army
Has high morale and zero boundaries
You better stay away
Or end up beyond any help
Only a truly dark mind has a chance
To be friends with the crowned old rat
—
Games of the Wicked King
You won't be down to play with him
Not down to play with him
There is no win
When playing with the Wicked King
Sacrifices will be made
When playing with the Wicked King
—
His palace stands
On a mountain of his former friends’s heads
His people live in shit
Near his golden steps
Ones who can speak
Are always fast to be gone or deadly sick
For many there's no need to care,
‘Cause Bishop clearly said:
"God supports the King!"
—
There’s no escape from here
You have to stay and work hard
Tomorrow's another long day
No can be late
Our god has other castles here and there
Only the King and his dear friends
Can cross the state
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10. |
Tropes of Evil
06:13
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At the point where life starts costing too much
Far beyond the borders of its bliss
A spirit approached my forever lost,
Locked in a dying body soul, and instructed it:
Bring me the weak
Feed me their hearts
Bring me yourself
Armed, on your knees
No morals, no meaning — those were lost
In the sea of lies and empty words
Selling poison as justice for the ill
In the name of the future that couldn’t be real
Death was fare, we’ve survived
With numbers and hate, truth on our side
Since then Spirit’s wisdom was wide and well-known
When punching up, one can never be wrong
—
Our children were taught
Well enough
To be strong in the face
Of the former gods
How to hold the ground
And swing the sword of our truth
Sacrifice all
For the higher cause
—
Why you keep to yourself
Secrets that could mend your broken world
For better or for worse
But to hell is the only road you want to know
The shit you come up with to save your hide
Every day brings out the absolute worst in me
—
The next thing was hunger, then rivers turned red
Things I’ve done for this blooded throne of regrets
Don’t even know how, but I asked Spirit one more time
How to stop the pain, it said:
Show me hell
Right now, here, on this Earth
Rip out shame from your chest
Feed it to the flame
Looking back at the bodycount
When was the starting point of the dive?
Out of sight, out of mind, my father said
In the name of the Spirit — all is just
On the landscape of power
How could not we be right?
The oppressed and offended army of justice
Serving all the humankind
—
Why you keep to yourself
Secrets that could mend your broken world
For better or for worse
But to hell is the only road you want to know
The shit you come up with to save your pride
Every day brings out the absolute worst in me
—
Sacrifice all
For the higher cause
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11. |
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All bets are off
Can't change your answer
The hellhounds are on your trail
For you there’s no more questions
For what it's worth
Congratulations
From this point on
No more retries
One life, RNG to max
No refunds
As long as you keep the rules in mind
I am sure you’ll just be fine
—
We are long past the boiling point
Closer to the place we belong
Closer to the edge where the old barbed fence
Ends twisted in a smiley face
This one won’t be the last to fight
Tell everyone: come take a byte
Scratch down one more
Another day, another threshold’s left behind
—
The safety net was taken down
Now what’s beneath is another kind of road
Only time will tell how many deaths
We were destined to avoid
—
This is where the black screen hits
There are no choices left in the catalogue
For you and me this time there will be no
After-credits epilogue
—
What were your thoughts
When the wall of fangs formed right behind your back?
Was it your first face time with the tricky freedom?
Or for the first time wanting pain?
What courage did it take?
Was it just a desperate rebel’s call
To pass beyond this point of no return?
—
Will you give up or go down loud?
Let us leave “running” to the smart
Since the crossing of the bottom line
Your heartbeat’s very frowned upon
—
Feed me your higher lie
Feed me your higher lie
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14. |
A Will (instrumental)
05:33
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15. |
Asylum (instrumental)
05:03
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19. |
Home (instrumental)
04:37
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20. |
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22. |
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